A New Decade: Make It Count!

It’s not only that this year has almost come to an end, giving us a chance to reflect upon the events from the last twelve months within our lives; it is that a whole decade is coming to a close. 10 years of our lives (10 years of this blog!).  

I recognise that I am totally biased towards being someone who thinks that one should do more than exist, but I’d challenge those of you bumping along to ask yourself if you are happy with how you have lived the last year; last ten years? Are there aspects of your life that you feel you could have done a better job? Or taken a different approach? Would you be more content if you had? If you had that conversation? Taken that risk? Been that bit more vulnerable and open? Do you instead feel you are a victim of your circumstances? Do you have that “why me?” feeling?

Fair enough if you have taken the time to reflect and are perfectly content within your comfort zone. That is a choice, as well and one that works for many. However, if you look back and recognise that you could have/ should have done more, or something,  or differently, then I’ve got a challenge for you.

Make this next decade count! 

Effectively these next paragraphs of call to action are going to be a collection of sayings accumulated in my past 10 years of reflection and experience. I’m sure there is some quoting credit that is meant to be done; however, this fondue-pot of experience has assimilated, thus apologies in advance. Here it goes. 

“What’s the worst that can happen?”. 

Well, in my full reality and in some situations, you might die, but I’d challenge most of you to rationally recognise that actually dying in pursuit of your own personal challenge will not kill you. And for those of you who are on a pursuit of more of an extreme goal or endeavour, where the risk of death is actual, then there are ways to mitigate the risk through thorough preparation. Please take the time to be thoroughly prepared, for when the worst happens. 

“What’s the worst that can happen?”, in regards to taking a risk in leaving your job, speaking to that person you’ve been avoiding, taking control of your health, etc, etc, does not likely have a chance of death. Perhaps instead there is a chance of rejection, or too large of an effort, or failure of some sort, but you will still be alive the next day to try something else, or go back to your old ways, if that suits you better. What is important though, is that you tried. You don't get what you don't ask for. You miss 100% of the shots you don't take... okay, that one is Gretzky for sure.

Our minds naturally catastrophise to the worst possible outcome we can imagine, usually humiliation or rejection, but what is so bad about that? It sucks to feel rejected or ashamed, but that is a momentary reaction. You can choose to not feel that way. So what if someone doesn’t like you? There are over 7 billion people in this world, I’m sure there is someone out there who thinks you’re awesome. YOU should think YOU are awesome without needing that validation from others. Find your self-worth. Value your self. 

Or, so what if that diet/ exercise/ communication style didn’t work for you? Try another approach. Why not try a completely different approach, rather than more of the same? Someone said the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results. It’s likely that if you are continuously disappointed with the outcome, you are probably going through the same recipe, just trying different ingredients. Why not try a different WAY instead? Stop being a serial complainer and be brave enough to have happiness and contentment in your life.  Be brave enough to do it a different way.

I can share that a different outlook and approach has certainly helped me grow and progress... after getting fed up of the same outcome, after “trying to change”, I actually took the time to listen to other perspectives. 

What?!? 

My way isn’t always the best way?! 

Well, if you are someone who likes to challenge, then you can only be a good challenger by accepting that there are other ways to get to the goal. Try it on. See how it feels? Stick with it for a period long enough to decipher if this other way is a better way, or not. Challenge back on experience rather than the hypothetical. 

Are you being your best self? 

A great friend of mine said you should trade upwards in your relationships. You are the average of the 5 people you spend the most time with, so what circles are you swimming in? Are you swimming at all? Metaphorically? Like are you on the observation deck or in the pool? And physically? In the script of Mr. Robot: are you a 1 or a 0? Are you a doer or not? 

Okay, so I’m not quite ready to jump on the triathlon bandwagon, but if I keep hanging out with people who are, I’m sure I’ll be doing my own swimming... well, maybe in another decade. The point is, I am hanging out with people who want more, have more, have goals, want more than where they are today. More physicality, more enjoyment, more out of life! 

What is also important is that the circles I am attracted to are also grateful! Glass-half-full-love-lifers. Please don’t mistake my ambition and drive for dissatisfaction about my circumstances. Robin once asked me what am I grateful for, and it was easy to answer: I’m grateful to be born where I was, when I was, in the family I have. Everything that I am now is growth from those relatively affluent (compared to the rest of the world) circumstances. 

Visit a third world country more than once in your life if you feel like your life is too hard. Heck, visit the inner city of wherever you currently live and empathise with those who have less. If you have, sometimes being your best self is helping those who have not in whatever capacity that resonates strongest with you. 

Make it personal. Make it real. 

If you’re not enlisted to the core, what’s the point? Goals become successes when you’re enlisted; living and breathing whatever betterment you are trying to achieve. Don’t let your goals become tasks or just another item on your to-do list that you will get around to. I recognise I am preaching about making goals (another great friend told me I am addicted to goal setting which I completely accept), but your goals don’t need to be lofty, Nobel Prize winning efforts. Rather, they are personal commitments to making your life a little better, or maybe different. Robin used to make three goals a year: one for his relationships, one for his well-being, and one massive challenge. Start small with something you know you are likely to achieve. Achievement feels nice... don't you want to feel a little more warm and fuzzy? 

Here are some suggestions if you don’t know where to start: be a better listener, learn about and practice empathy, stop judging people.

Make your to-do list and goals real. 

If it’s in your head, it doesn’t exist. Once it’s written, or spoken to another, then it’s real. Make your goals real. Make your thoughts real. Make your opinions real. Stop living in your own reality and realise that you are not alone... even if you are super introverted and wish you were alone. I’d like to challenge (as an experienced introvert and introvert whisperer), that even if those moments where you truly need to be alone are numerous, they are not the only moments of your life. You are 1 in 7 (ish) billion, mull over that. 

Share the goal. 

Share the journey.

Share the experience. 

You are not the only one this has happened to. You are not the only one thinking the way you are. Your thoughts are not original (heard from Tony Robbins) Perhaps you helping others, being your better or best self, is sharing your experience to help others with their journey. 

So what’s it going to be? 

What page do you chose to turn to? 

How will you be different? Or better? Or even the best you can be? In whichever facet of your life that might be. 

Make this next decade count!

P.S. 

If you feel like you need a bit of support in setting goals, message me and we can chat! 

P.P.S: 

And in the spirit of sharing and making it real, here are some of my goals for the next year to kick-off the decade: 

• get my 6-Star Medal (follow me on Instagram @xtynspix
• Run the Everest Marathon (and get closure Nepal). You can join me in Nepal for the trek to Everest Base Camp, and/or to run the marathon if you are that way inclined)... message me for details at kristyncarriere@hotmail.com
• Launch 7 Summits Snacks: my legacy chocolate-snacking company inspired in part by Robin’s endeavours. Done with two other fabulous women, Christine and my sister, Leanna. Website and dedicated write up coming soon. Follow us on Instagram @7summitsnacks

Feeling Grateful

Two months on from my last blog and it’s time to string you along a little bit more as some of my plans are coming together. I seem to keep teasing you with the idea of slowing down to go faster, and I’ve now hit what might be the peak of slowing down (work wise) as I get set up for the next chapter in this book of mine. 

So, what’s happened? 

I’m on Garden Leave (a UK thing) as I'm switching jobs at the moment. I am still going to be making chocolate and chocolate products, just for the competition… details to follow when appropriate. And for those of you who don’t know what Garden Leave is, it's called so because you are technically still employed during your notice period, but because it is for a competitor, you can't go into work. You are supposed to stay home and not speak with people from work, so you "forget" what you learned. In essence, I have ultimately stopped working until the middle of May. 

It feels like the calm before the storm at the moment, and I’ve taken some time to reflect on getting to this point as I choose to move forward to the next chapter. In this time, I have realised how grateful I am for my experiences until now and this is what I want to share with you today: a couple of things I am grateful for in my life.

What I’m firstly grateful for: people who support me.

Most specifically my family and partner. 

I always thought family should unconditionally support you in your endeavours, but I’ve realised after a course I took (the Landmark Forum), that this is not always a give-in. Many people in this world have disjointed and unsupportive families, and from this I’m very thankful for the family that I have. Wherever I have been on this globe, my family has been there for me- at the end of the phone, text, or e-mail. When I’ve been on a physical challenge, they’ve been there to cheer me on. When I’ve been on a learning adventure, they’ve been there to listen and accept me for who I am.  When I have a bump in the road, they are on the end of FaceTime to support me emotionally. What I’ve reflected on in my time off in the past month is that I know that I am unconditionally supported by my family (where others may not be) which enables me to feel connected wherever I may be. Thank you for that!

I am also grateful for my partner, Robin. A very patient man. A very supportive man. During this round of my life, it is so nice to have someone to enjoy the journey with. Someone who wants to play with you, take part in adventures together with you. Not just as a one off- but all the time. Someone who is as committed to growth and achievement as you- having him part of my journey, making it our journey, makes the ride a lot more enjoyable. Someone to explore life with- the physical challenges and the mental ones. Thank you, Robin for being my partner in life.

So to share with you my insights as my world slows right down, here are a couple of notes on being grateful that I’ve come across in the past month as Gratefulness has an association with mental well-being, and seems to be the next craze beyond Mindfulness.

From Wikipedia in  regards to empirical studies of gratefulness (take from it what you will)

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gratitude#Empirical_findings 

“A large body of recent^[when?] work has suggested that people who are more grateful have higher levels of subjective well-being. Grateful people are happier, less depressed, less stressed, and more satisfied with their lives and social relationships.^[15][18][19] Specifically, in terms of depression, gratitude may serve as a buffer by enhancing the coding and retrievability of positive experiences.^[20] Grateful people also have higher levels of control of their environments, personal growth, purpose in life, and self acceptance.^[21] Grateful people have more positive ways of coping with the difficulties they experience in life, being more likely to seek support from other people, reinterpret and grow from experiences, and spend more time planning how to deal with the problem.^[22] Grateful people also have less negative coping strategies, being less likely to try to avoid the problem, deny there is a problem, blame themselves, or cope through substance use.^[22] Grateful people sleep better, and this seems to be because they think less negative and more positive thoughts just before going to sleep.”

So my thinking is, why wouldn't you want to be happier, less stressed and satisfied with life? Why not try gratefulness out for a while?

From the Todo Institute   http://www.todoinstitute.org/gratitude.html

“In Japanese language there is a term -- on.  The meaning of on often includes a sense of gratitude combined with a desire to repay others for what we have been given.  It’s not just that we feel grateful, or that we express our gratitude, but that we actually experience a sincere desire to give something back … A sense of obligation that arises naturally within us as we recognise how we have been supported and cared for by others.”

With that, I’d like to recognise the support lines in my life for allowing me to achieve what I have thus far and for being a part of my lifelong journey. Similarly to what I wrote in my last entry, “the rewarding aspects of going out  there and achieving (your) goals … is to share the experience and journey with those you love”.

How to Climb Mountains: My big adventures and how I make them happen

Happy New Year!

I left you all a few months ago with some words of wisdom around the adage “slow down to go faster” as I was wrapping up the end of a hectic two years. I believe I also left you saying that "I now feel recharged and up for the next challenge. I’m ready to get back into it- whatever that might be. I feel clear, supported, motivated, and dare I say, comfortable (uh oh! That’s a dangerous word!)".

So... Bring it! 
Bring what, exactly?
Stay tuned ;-)

In the meantime, I want to share with you a presentation that I gave to my colleagues in late 2016. I feel it's an appropriate time to share my experiences and motivations as many people kick-off their New Year Resolutions (something that I never do; why should goals only be for January?!).

Enjoy!

I recognize that there are people who are entirely happy and content with what they have today. Appreciative of their circumstances and how they have arrived at them.

And to those of you reading this, here is a series of pretty pictures.

However, if you are a dreamer, go-getter, dabbler or achiever, I hope that you leave today feeling more energetic to go after that thing you’ve been thinking about doing for some time.

I’m going to share with you today my experiences of climbing mountains… why I started and how I make it happen, leaving you with 3 “principles” that help me to get out there. 

Perspective is a good tool to have, and one I employ usually to help me make the best of situations. Introspectively, it's probably my go-to tool in most aspects of my life. The Cambridge Dictionary suggests perspective can be a particular way of consideration or to think of a situation or problem in a wise and reasonable way. Tangibly, perspective is also comparative, regarding different proportions of two things. I use perspective to assess my gaps, determine my goals, and appreciate my progress. I might even go so far to say it is my framework.

Achiever from the Gallup StrengthsFinder point of view: a constant need for achievement. By the end of the day I must achieve something tangible in order to feel good about myself. Your relentless need for achievement might not be logical. It might not even be focused. But it will always be with you. This is the WHY I do these challenges. Sometimes completing that spreadsheet on time is enough, other times just making it to the gym quiets that whisper. But what I find is that every so often, I need to go big!

So KNOW YOURSELF: know what makes you tick and find a healthy way to engage that whisper or urge.

RECOGNIZE: that maybe you don’t have such notions or niggles. Rather, you have thoughts or dreams you think would be “nice” one day.  If this is the case, then grant yourself permission to step towards those thoughts and dreams instead of keeping them as such.

If you aren’t an achiever, you can still climb mountains (quite practically as a colleague said to me: you just put one foot in front of the other) and repeat over and over and over again. The point is choose to move forwards rather than sit still.

If you choose feats that interest you, you will. You don’t need to be able- now.

England (or wherever you may be) IS beautiful (vs. some parts of Canada- a place many think is the most beautiful in the world). We must be appreciative of the circumstances we are physically in, in this moment. But there are more relaxing, inspiring, energetic (choose adjective) places to visit and live than wherever you are in the moment. The point is, unless you open your mind, you won’t know.

Open your mind to possibilities and you can entertain the ideas of different.

Then assess for yourself what is best for your life.

Geographically. Psychologically- meaning self assess if you are happy with your current life (know yourself), and then Open Your Mind to ways in which you can make it a little (or a lot) better.

And sometimes these two can combine to give you the ultimate sense of perspective… Standing on the top of the tallest mountain in Africa and realising that you ARE capable when the last 7 hours/ days/ months of your life have been a challenge. 

That’s another reason why I do this… I find being on the top of the land gives me ultimate perspective.

Just a note:

Opening your mind implies that you are ACTIVELY looking outwards to gain experience and perspective. It puts the onus on you! Being open-minded, I find is sometimes negatively put-on-you. It is receptive… you are in a situation you are uncomfortable with and a coach/ partner/ managers “urges” you to be open-minded about it… essentially asking you to agree with their perspective. 

By knowing yourself (recognizing your whims), opening your mind to think beyond where you are in the moment you can now ACTIVELY seek out growth or enriching experiences. OR acknowledge that where you are today is just fine.

Why not give that new idea/ activity/ experience a try?

Unless it’s illegal, then why do you think you shouldn’t ?

Can’t? Just put one foot in front of the other.

Will do it later?  There might not be later.

It's cliche, I know to say there might not be later; however, it's absolutely true. Stop procrastinating and either accept your situation or TRY and make a start.

In summary these principles cover the "why" to "how" I get caught up in these experiences. Why, because I know myself and know that I need this sense of achievement and action in my life. By opening my mind, I understand why I do these challenges. By opening my mind, I can consider numerous ways to move from where I am today (how). How do I make these experiences happen? Well quite frankly, I just get stuck in.

And finally, one of the most rewarding aspects of going out there and achieving such goals, however small or large, is being able to share the experience and the journey with those you love. Most certainly in the moment, with my partner in play and partner in life, Robin, and then outwardly  and reminiscently with you.

Reporting from the Top of Le Mont

Or rather, from altitude 0 m post achievement.

Who takes a snowy holiday at the end of a somewhat languish summer? Surely I should have been seeking out some sun and sand as a way to get away from my daily grind and not prioritizing the number of pairs of woolly socks to pack my suitcase instead of bikinis. But, it's a fact that Canadians require a certain amount of snow exposure per year to remain functioning beings, hence my trek to the top of Western Europe. At 4807 or 4810m high, where perhaps the difference in opinion does have something to do with the amount of snow continuously blanketing France/ Italy's tallest peak, I stood forgetting four hours of grind to feel like a queen on top of the world... just me, my partner Robin, our guide Seb (and some bloody bird!).

Mont Blanc from Glacier du Tour

As usual- this is how it went.

Pre-Event:

I mentioned before that I was feeling slightly out of my depths when acquiring items off of my kit list and reviewing the proposed itinerary, and still until we started, I was not feeling overtly confident. Not because of lack of ability (all the gear and no idea(r))- remember the internet says you just need to be fit to do this- no skill necessary; however, the internet also says that summit success rates are only around 50 - 60%. I tried to look into this statistic a bit more to help me manage my expectations and from the tidbits of information that I could find, the factors seemed to be mainly weather dependent. To the mountain weather forecast I went: outlook: snowy + wind gusts= very cold. Hmmm... Think positively. Mountain weather changes daily. You cannot rely on this forecast until the day.

To climb Mont Blanc you fly to Geneva, then transport to Chamonix, and then depending on your (pre)chosen route up, catch a lift, and a gondola, and a lift, and a telephonic train, and a ... and eventually you are there. In short, there are a few faces and starting places to embark upon your journey. We went the Chamonix - Les Houches - Gondola - Telephonic Train to Nid D'Aigle – two-legged-not-so-express-to-the-top option. Two pre-training days + three days on Mont Blanc all brilliantly arranged by our chosen company OnTop Mountaineering. Super kudos goes out to the OnTop team who were friendly and accommodating on top of perfectly managing our expectations for the entire trip. Oh yes, and for assigning Seb as our superstar guide!

Maps of the areas we were to trek.

Col de Balme to Aiguille de Tour Map

Nid D'Aigle to Mont Blanc Map

This is an achievement that you can organise and carry out yourself, if you are an experienced Alpinist fully understanding the dangers of this mountain; however I know my limits and left this planning to the professionals. So after spending a day in the quaint mountain town of Chamonix prior to the penultimate event, Robin and I (thought we) were ready to get started and met our guide Seb in our hotel lobby on "Day 1".

Day 1- Training and acclimatization. Hike to Albert Premier Hut (2702m) via Col de Balme

As I said, we met Seb our guide in our hotel lobby with what we thought were light backpacks ready to take on the next two days. Seb discerningly looked us up and down and as first order of business had us open our bags to inspect the contents. 

Guide notes here (and by guide, I will dually mean from the Guide Seb AND guiding notes for those intending to embark on the same journey): when the itinerary says to pack light, do so. You do not need superfluous items such as a towel, contents of a medicine cabinet, or a loaf of bread, bag of salad, and packet of crisps for two days away. You stay at catered huts on this journey (Top tip= buy lunch onsite and more about the huts in a bit) and if you can't suck it up and not wash your face in the span of 24 hours, then perhaps outdoor pursuits such as this are not for you.

With the bobble-toque and extra map discarded for the first two days of "training" we were ready to start our adventure and travelled to Col de Balme.

Col de Balme Gondola

A gondola, chair lift and two hour hike later (ascent from 2195m – 2702m) through the Alpine mountainside, we arrived at Albert Premier Hut. The trail was not busy, apart from the odd Alpine Cow (now I understand why the Milka Alpine milk tastes so nice). The hike itself was not so challenging, even with the odd handrail fastened to the rock side. The views of the Mont Blanc Massif range were spectacular- from greenery to rock formations to an ever shrinking Glacier de Tour.

Alpine Mountains

Upon Hut arrival, Seb promptly explained the rules to us and we de-booted, re-booted with Crocs, put our crampons, helmets, ice axes, etc. in our basket, claimed our beds, and returned to the dining hall for some lunch. The first hut experience was far better than expected, where perhaps I was expecting some make-shift shelter in the mountains. However, these recently re-built modern hostel-type establishments are far nicer than some hotels I have stayed in. Hut-living comes complete with dorm-style sleeping, a communal dining area with great traditional food choices (dietary considerations catered for with advanced notice), and modern bathrooms, where this particular hut had running water. Tete Rousse and Gouter Huts where we stayed at later on did not, although they did have flushing toilets- no long drops here.

De-boot and don the Crocs

Dorms in the Albert Premier Hut

Two of four courses for dinner- always cheese (Tome) and soup.

Boots and box at the huts

Seb explained that communal overnighting at these huts does not come so cheap; the two main reasons being that supplies are helicoptered in regularly and that the French Alpine Clubs that own these buildings use them as profitable business ventures- so, typical of most property owners. Nightly rates + four course dinner + basic breakfast range from 60 – 90 € per person. Lunch, water, beverages, etc. are available at extra cost; water @5.20€/ 1.5L and 100g Milka@ 4.00€/ bar.

Post lunch it was out to the Glacier de Tour to become better acquainted with our technical kit.

Crampons for the glaciers.

We spent about an hour learning how to tie our crampons on and using them to traverse the ridges, flats, and cracks of the Glacier. Ten-ten-ten-ten was my new mantra for the next five days as instructions are to channel your inner duck, keep the 10-points of your crampons on the ice at all time with your feet in a 10:10 watch-face orientation. Unless however you need to get yourself out of a crevasse; in that case you stick the ice wall with your front four points and anchor your ice axe with such force as you might be taking out your anger of paying taxes to the government Seb says. Warned with the dangers of snow bridges and glacier walking, it was time to return back to the Hut, eat dinner and get a good night’s sleep as we had a 4:00am breakfast call the next day.

Glacier du Tour four point crampon practice

Glacier du Tour crampon practice

Day 2- Albert Premier Hut (2750m) to Aiguille de Tour (3550m)

A generally straightforward day of trekking: Rocks, glacier traversing over crevasses you dare not look down, and about a 30 minute near vertical scramble got us to the top of Aiguille de Tour looking down over France and Switzerland. In the panorama of our summit we were spoilt by the clear view of peaks such as Aiguille Verte, Chardonnet, the Matterhorn (in the distance) and Mont Blanc. We were prompted to remember the curvature of the Mont Blanc summit as Seb warned that when you think you have hit the last relentless push, there is still probably another hill to climb.

I’m convinced that such an early start is to help your mind get you to the tops of these peaks. If you were confronted by some of the snow bridges and crevasses in plain daylight and a fully-awake brain, you might just turn around to the hut to enjoy a Tartiflette and bottle of Mont Blanc beer. Rather, to naively begin your journey in the dark (metaphorically and practically speaking) is slightly more comfortable from my point of view. Only look back at the danger once you have passed through and are at the end. Ooooo… philosophical.

During this trek we were also introduced to the idea of roping together as a team- no, those are not leashes in the pictures. Seb explained the previous day that we rope together in case someone falls down a crevasse. As most European crevasses are thought to be less than 10m wide, we are tied together at 10m intervals and instructed to keep the rope taught for the duration of walking on the glaciers. At times we shorten to 2m intervals, mainly on the ridges going up or down. Apparently it is ok (or maybe more stable) to let someone fall 10m down a crevasse, but only 2m off the side of a ridge. Furthermore, Seb did make it very clear that whatever thoughts we were having, we must not fall off the ridges- that was paperwork that he was just not ready to deal with.

Crevasse traversing

We took 4.5 hours to get to the top of Aiguille du Tour and a further 3 hours to descend back to the Albert Premier hut in the full realisation of some of the dangers that we crossed. This trek back was complete with stiff warnings from Seb at times to keep pace and do not stop to take pictures on the glacier, because the reality is that we do not know what is under the snow in places.

Summit of Aiguille de Tour

After a brief stop for lunch at the hut, we completed our hike down through the Milka Alpine valley back to the chairlift, gondola, and eventually hotel. Time to get a comfortable night’s sleep, re-pack our bags, and mentally prepare for the next three days and our big trek to the top of “le Mont”.

Day 3- Bellevue Cable Car (1800m) to Tramway Mont Blanc (2380m) to Tete Rousse (3167m)

An “easy” day as described by Seb and our itinerary as we were to conserve our energy on the 2.5 hours and 780m up through more of a Martian looking landscape. We were able to spend the time soaking in the glacial views, say hello to the mountain goats, and talk through the meaning of life, our hopes, dreams and statistical chances of summit success. Or rather, theorise about why a leading a life of moderation trumps vegetarianism when it comes to a natural state of being. I did say that it was an easy day.

Route to the top from Nid d'Aigle

Rockfall warnings in the safe zone

Wildlife on Mars

Martian landscape on the way up to Tete Rousse Hut

At the Tete Rousse Hut that evening, I begin to feel the altitude a little bit in my head, or perhaps it was the dizzying warnings Seb briefed us on- remember: “the approach from the Tete Rousse Hut is technically the most challenging… the traverse of the Grand Couloir is the most notorious and objectively dangerous part of the ascent”. There are times where we will be asked to walk quickly. There will be times where we need 200% focus and no talking. In looking up at the face we are about to climb (when it will be dark) the reality of this adventure sets in. Guiding words here: “don’t worry about what you haven’t experienced; women are experts at this”.

The Grand Couloir

The Grand Couloir and Mont Blanc from Tete Rousse

One last dinner conversation to be had is whether to be wary of the weather or not- meaning, do we actually summit on Day 4. The forecast came in:

Saturday: clear morning, -15 to -20C at above 4000m, wind 15 kph, snow showers forecast for midday

Sunday: snow showers in the afternoon/ night, clear morning, -15 to -20C at above 4000m, winds gusting above 35 kph

leaving the guides in the Hut to discuss two options:

1.    Breakfast call at 2amà Grand Couloir en nuità Refreshment break at Gouter Hutà 6am depart to the summit of the Mont à descend to Gouter Hut and enjoy the afternoon/ evening before the traverse back down to the parking lot on Day 5. This option= 3 hrs up + 4  - 6 hours up + 3 hours down, then sleep.

Benefits= sleep at Gouter Hut before coming down the mountain on the descent (Grand Couloir reverse). If an unsuccessful first attempt at summiting, there is another day to try.

Risks= Grand Couloir on the way up is in the dark. Snow at midday could leave for poor visibility and conditions coming down from the summit back to Gouter Hut.

OR

2.    Breakfast call at 8am à Grand Couloir to Gouter Hut (3 hrs) in the light. Rest at Gouter Hut. Big day Sunday with the 2am breakfast call, 4 – 6hrs to the summit in time for sunrise à descend to Gouter Hut for lunch  (3 hrs) à descend the Grand Couloir on a tired body (3 hrs)à Descend to the train (2 hrs)= 12 hour day potentially.

Benefits= play Scrabble en Franglais while we rest at Gouter Hut and sit out the potential snow showers on Saturday.

Risks= if the weather is also bad on the Sunday, then we have low summit chances. High chances of fatigue when you need to have your wits about you.

In the end, both options were selected by various groups on the same journey. Seb decided that we channel the good karma of travelling with a vegetarian and try to summit on Saturday. Good night it was- we had a 1:40 am alarm to get up to.

Day 4- Up and down. Summit day: Tete Rousse (3167m) to Gouter Hut (3817m) via the Grand Couloir. Gouter Hut to Mont Blanc (4810m) and back.

1:40 am came around quickly and I was feeling pretty good as I downed as much stale baguette and apricot jam as my mouth would let me. We were joined by about five other groups and as we geared up to go, Seb strictly warned us that for the next 45 minutes, there will be no talking. It was dark, ominous, and even the sprinkling of snow coming from the sky that I usually find so magical didn’t distract me from the seriousness of the next bit of the journey. Seriousness again reinforced as we approached the most dangerous cut-in-loose-ish rock goat path- and Seb herded together on one meter ropes and told us to cross with pace. Thank goodness I can’t actually see what is going on! Ignorance is bliss.

Well, blissful enough until we quickly approach what is to be about another 90 minutes of near vertical scrambling to the experienced, or what is rock climbing to me. Just keep going up. Don’t look down. Use the cables fixed to the sides to help you manoeuvre around some of the one meter gaps. Get past this and the rest will be no problem. Be thankful that you are coming down this bit tomorrow.

At the moment I am most thankful that we have arrived at the Gouter Hut for a spot of tea. We take the opportunity to put more clothes on and empty everything unnecessary from our bags. It’s now 6:00am and Seb looks impatiently at us urging us to lace up and go.

Light is starting to break as we embark our summit trek up the snowy glacier and the weather has passed leaving what looks to be a clear morning. We have crampons on and are roped together. It should take 4 to 6 hours. We will briefly stop at the last refuge (we are pre-warned it is a dirty makeshift shelter) for a quick refreshment break/ clothing adjustment/ health check before the final summit attempt. Although this part is less technical than the ascent up the Grand Couloir, it is still a long and tiring hill climb.

Dome de Gouter

Vallot Refuge (4300m)

Our Guide wasn’t kidding when he described the dirty Vallot Hut (4300m). Thoughts of going to the loo for me are entirely killed as my options are to drop my trousers outside where it is -20C or else to enter a “toilet unsuitable for women” as Seb described it (I didn’t see for myself). A quick mental calculation of one hour more up and three hours back means no more tea and it seems the fluids management part of my earlier marathon training is really paying off now. I reluctantly attempted to chew on a Cliff bar instead as we were asked to remember that what you think is the top is not the top, but we are nearly there, so keep going.

With good guide skills on show, Seb has understood my need to break things into manageable portions (likely from my continuous questioning on timings prior to this point), as he lets me know that the top is only 6 hill climbs away… 5 more hills to go… 4 more ups… Between this countdown and figuring out to take smaller steps up the 45°+ inclines, my fatiguing calves are slowly, but surely getting me to my end goal.

One of the six hills en route to the Mont Blanc summit

One of the ridges on Mont Blanc

I’m aware of my tiring legs and at the same time blatantly turning myself off from the world within my peripheral vision. Again, ignorance is bliss, or a coping mechanism in this case as we traverse across the final ridges to the summit. Ridges with steep drops into the depths of France and/or Italy. Ridges that are not more than one meter wide.

Simply not allowed to fall. France on the right, Italy on the left.

In hindsight the regret I have is that I didn’t experience the moments up as fully as I could (and I wish I would have taken off my shades and helmet for my pictures)! After the four hour uphill slog, I didn’t get that same euphoric feeling that I had at the top of Kili. Shame. And proof that you shouldn’t go chasing happiness; rather, by experiencing the run up as fully as you can, your life will be just as rich. I guess similar to what “some say”- enjoy the ride. That realisation is the “difference that made the difference” to quote some previous learning from the year. I changed my frame, shook my head, and remembered I was standing on top of Western Europe. Oh yea! Open my eyes and soak it all in. We were standing here with no other company than our own.

On top of Western Europe- Mont Blanc summit

Oh yes, but it was reality check time and although we had the most perfect summit conditions possible, it was now time to get the heck back down. Mantra in full force: ten-ten-ten-ten with every step and braced with the warning from Seb that we were simply not allowed to fall, we used all of the downhill crampon/axe techniques we practiced the days before and waddled our way back down the ridges to the Vallot refuge. Here we split from 2 meter ropes to 10 meter ropes as we were able to fully soak up the sunshine and views as we made our way back across the Dome du Gouter to the Gouter Hut for a relaxing afternoon and watch the hesitant faces of those embarking on their summit day on Sunday over dinner.

Making our way back to the Gouter Hut

Looking back.

Day 5- Down and down the Grand Couloir from Gouter Hut (3817m)

Alarm at 6:40am for a 7:00 stale bread breakfast call and a quick glance across the dorm to see that 6/12 bunks are empty with hikers who have made their departure for the summit earlier in the morning. We gear up for the final time: ice axed fixed to the backpack (eventually) and crampons on as we start off on a narrow ridge out of the Gouter Hut that I must have blocked from my memory on the way up. Gulp.

Ridge to Gouter Hut

The comfort blanket of the dark is no longer as we approach the rocks we climbed up, now sporting a thin layer of icy snow. Do I go down the rocks facing out or to the rocks? Seb encourages the outward facing method; I tweak it to include sitting on my bum and stretching a tiptoe down until I can grip anything with my boots. We are urged to be confident in our steps and in times I begin to feel comfortable, I’m faced with a 5-foot gap to traverse across on a vertical rock face. Suck it up, girl!

Grand Couloir descent.

After a brief moment to catch my breath and lower my heart rate, we approach the most dangerous rock-fall area of the Couloir, where we have been reminded of the instability by hearing small slides over the past hour. We are more so leashed together on one meter ropes now and have been instructed to keep close and quick as we traverse the balance beam of fresh snow on something just stiffer than scree for about a minute or two. This is now the fastest my heart has raced and the most scared I have felt in the past five days. And even as we enter the “safe(r)” zone, we see some boulders/ discus shaped rocks (depending on who tells the story) tumbling down the face of the mountain at a decapitating velocity.

The most objectively dangerous traverse of the Grand Couloir.

Within the hour we arrive at Tete Rousse Hut and the relief and full sense of achievement now settles in. Seb says “now you can say you’ve climbed Mont Blanc”. We look back at where we came from where Seb also mentions that due to the gusting on the top of the mountain, there might only have been a 30% chance of summiting today. Crampons off, harness off, extra warm clothes back into the backpack, we sit down for our last bowl of mountain tea before trekking back through Mars and into the valley.

Now we can say we have climbed Mont Blanc- at Gare du Nid d'Aigle

Final Thoughts:

Looking back (at my notes), I compiled some final thoughts from this adventure that I will now share:

-      Don’t be scared until you are there… and as Seb said, apparently women are best at this.

-      The Grand Couloir looks terrifying from a far, and then again on the GoPro footage, but honestly it wasn’t so bad when you are in the moment- except for the part where you traverse “a balance beam of fresh snow on something just stiffer than scree for about a minute or two”. That was scary!

-      Tunnel vision is an amazing coping mechanism… at the cost of experiencing the journey.

-      Trust your guide to see the big picture when you are practicing tunnel vision- Seb knew the “boulder” was coming and hastily told us to keep moving.

-      Endurance was key- know how to deal with fatiguing muscles: physically take smaller steps, mentally keep pushing.

-      This was as hard for me as Kilimanjaro, but for different reasons. Mont Blanc is technical, perhaps short and sharp in comparison. Mont Blanc was more enjoyable looking back.

o    To a seasoned Alpinist, this Mont is a cake-walk.

-      Live in the moment and take time to enjoy the journey- cliché, I know.

Mont Blanc from Chamonix