Sometimes it’s okay
to…
Take some time.
Reflect.
Be.
Coast?
Purposefully.
I’m okay. I’m not fine (in the English sense meaning
usually not fine- however, my new chocolate is fine). I’m well. I’m here. I
have been all year. It’s been a good year, and although I haven’t been blogging
you through my journey, I’m pleased to say I’ve still grown.
I am still me. I
haven’t slammed on the breaks. I’ve had different challenges this year that
have stretched me. What I haven’t done is overdone it. What I have done is
recuperated.
Year on year for
the past who knows how many years, I have actively pursued endeavors and
achievements, both academically and physically. Goals, milestones, timelines,
end-points. This year my pursuit has been in re-setting my routine. Learning
how to be. Learning how to be with a different +1. It’s been about
re-settling my mind and body; about growing in the ambiguous; about refreshing
my inner drive.
And you know what,
it’s okay to do that. Or at least, that’s what I have learned.
I guiltily feel a
bit like I’ve been coasting in areas of my life that I have traditionally
pushed: hobbies, job, physical challenges, and perhaps I have to an extent.
However in reflection, and if I was to write a list of what I have done this
year, it would still be well populated.
I know (or am justifying
that) it’s not been coasting, because to me coasting implies a level of
laziness, or passivity. I’ve still been engaged. I’ve still done my best. I
suppose what I haven’t done is over-achieve or over-exert, which is new to me. Instead
as I mentioned, I’ve been learning (active, therefore positive).
What can I/ should
I say about this year? What have I actually learned?
Keep your focus.
Keep moving forward. Invite new experiences (and people!) into your life (says
the Introvert). Reflect and learn from your past and your present. Don’t get
hung up on what you can’t change. Make small changes if you feel stuck. Be
thankful. Be open. Stay purposeful. Experience the moment.
I now feel
recharged and up for the next challenge. I’m ready to get back into it-
whatever that might be. I feel clear, supported, motivated, and dare I say,
comfortable (uh oh! That’s a dangerous word!).
Finally as I write
this, I realize that what I have in fact done, is “slow down to go faster” or however the adage goes.
